it’s been a while since I could update. If anyone’s out there in the void, I’m sorry about that.
Somehow I ended up here. In the lobby of a hotel somewhere in Vegas. I don’t even know the place of where I’m at. Of course when you’re completely on the run from your life, you tend to lose track of details.
The important details now are as follows:
Last night: Darcy happened. Yes. Darcy happened all over the damn place. Immediately upon rolling into town, she hit up the first slots she found, and hit a jackpot. An eight hundred dollar jackpot. What did this mean? It meant putting us all up on a suite, Darcy acting like a kid in a candy store at the liquor mart, and a hundred dollars in my hand to get some new clothes. “Seriously. You look like shit, Soph. This isn’t for you, I just don’t want to be seen with you like that anymore. It’s really depressing.”
Shopping in a hotel gift store in Vegas, however, never tends to yield any good results. Nevertheless, I managed to shed the Valentino rags off myself and get into a new black number that fit right, held my boobs up, and didn’t smell like sand, sweat, and regret. I also used the extra cash to hit up the salon. I figured after a month of looking and smelling like shit, and since I didn’t actually use my own credit cards, I was allowed a refresher. three hours later, with fresh highlights and professional make up, I stepped into the Vegas night as a new woman. I was prepared for the things that might happen to me as I once again donned a black dress. (including being mistaken as an escort.)
Armed with a hotel key of my own, and determination to find Betty, I was unstoppable. James told me to meet him here. I was on a mission to find the little shit who left me stranded in LA….
First visit: Roulette table at Caesar’s. Found a good looking guy in a suit with beautiful women standing next to him. Walking up I gingerly moved them aside and whispered in his ear. He turned to me and sized me up. Deciding I was legitimate, he leaned over and whispered an address into my ear. I nodded and walked straight out with renewed determination. Catching a glance of myself in the large wall mirrors as I headed out of the casino, reality managed to catch up to me for just a second. It was long enough to stop me in my tracks.
I stood looking at myself, putting together the adventure I’d gone on, mentally comparing the life I left behind a couple months ago to the person I had become in this amount of time. I realized for the first time in my life, my future was not planned out beyond the next few hours. I didn’t worry about what anyone else in my life thought of me. I had no cares as to my reputation or what consequences my actions might yield. I realized, I only cared about those who cared about me, who didn’t judge me but supported me, even if it meant telling me I looked like shit. My entire list of priorities was centered around getting my car back and continuing on a journey with a pack of hopeless Karma Vigilantes. Moments flashed through my head illustrating things like my college graduation…force smiles in a cap and gown and a disgusting realization I would be paying back student loans I didn’t want in the first place for a degree I didn’t want in the first place for a job I never wanted in the first place for a life I didn’t want in the first place. All for people who thought it was the best for me. All for people who loved me so hard, they truly believed I would thank them for my misery one day.
I’d spent enough time on that thought and moved on. Out the doors in to the hot Vegas night, haling a cab. I stated the address to the driver before I forgot it. He looked at me in his mirror and nodded.
The ride lasted longer than I thought it would. We left the strip and drove out to the houses. One nice house after another, smooth, blocky, swanky glass and custom lighting. We pulled up to the driveway. The driver smiled at me.
“How much?” I asked, reaching for the cash tucked into my bra. “I’ll just add it to the account,” he said.
“ok…” I said. I stepped out of the car and straightened my dress. I looked around and saw the strip twinkling at me from below. The house was on the ridge looking out, cars lining the driveway. My eyes stopped at the freshly waxed, shiny, newly restored ’94 Porsche. Betty smiled back at me. I walked over to her and looked inside, spotting the Betty Boop air freshener. It looked like we both got new dresses.
Bass beat boomed from the inside of the house. Most likely a party.
I walked through the front door, met by two bouncers. Large black men in well fitted black suits stopped me. They looked me over and I returned a glance that said “I pay your salary.” They nodded and let me by.
Instantly, I was surrounded by women my age. Gorgeous, classic, rich. They laughed, held their delicate cocktails and smiled energetically. They moved their eyes slowly, showcasing their lashes and full lips. They stood delicately, as if made of glass. They floated from one conversation to another. There were about four women to every tuxedo clad man. I knew which one I was looking for.
I made my way to the back yard. the pool glowed, making everyone seem modern and magical. I followed the cigar smoke to the pool house. The women gathered around him, entranced by the story he was telling. He boastfully regaled them with his heroic tale of saving a poor girl he’d met in New Orleans from a car jacker.
“That’s not quite the way I remember it.” I made my way through the designer gowns and stood in front of him. I crossed my arms as I looked down at him, donning a fresh Hugo Boss tux, shiny shoes, looking comfortable and a bit tipsy in a poolside lounger. As I emerged from the crowd, his face softened in relief and recognition.
He rose, the women parting, looking at me in awe, as if seeing a love story unfold.
He took a step toward me. I looked up at him, realizing I’d missed that face of his. I wanted to touch his hair now that I knew it was clean. I’d forgotten how tall he was and that he loomed over me. I’d also forgotten how good he looked in a clean tux. He reached out, brushing the strands of hair off my forehead that had grown damp with the light sweat from the hot Nevada night air.
“Hello Moneypenny,” he softly said, looking into my eyes, leaning in for a kiss.
“Hello James,” I replied, meeting his face with my fist.